If I had known better, I would have laid my body down and taken my last breath with his. This past year has taught me nothing more than the lesson, “It always gets harder.” I should have known better. I should have looked around the Emergency Room and seen my husband’s body and I should have laid my head against his chest and matched my heart rate to his, pulse for pulse, beep for beep, until both our hearts beat their last.
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